Seriously, I'm not that kind of girl who simply throw a bad words toward you. I just trying to tell you about how I feels. Honestly, I super duper jealous about yourself. You could do anything you want and nobody stopped you from doing that. You just love to be yourself and enjoyed every second in your life. You have a goal and dream to achieve...while me? Lost somewhere and I couldn't find myself. I though this semester I could changed and be someone like you, but I can't. It's really hard for me to be someone like you..who is taking serious about her life. I accept the truth that I can't be somebody in my life.
Lack of motivation could turned me to be someone like this!:
1. Who is pretending like knowing everything in her life.
2. Cheating because scared people will look down of her.
3. Being annoying and childish!
4. Negative thinking.
5. Losing her faith in Jesus.
6. Cursing people.
7. Being naughty and get herself in trouble.
8. Hurts people feeling and scold them because her own fault.
9. Blame her family because she feels like lack of love.
10. At the end, blaming herself because no faith and not confident to live in this world!
I'm always remind myself to be someone who have a good attitude, personality and be humble with other people. But, I failed to do so. I seldom fall into the darkness and loss everything. I couldn't find the light and I cry with no reason.
The thing that I really hate to do is hurting myself, family and friend feeling. When I hurts someone, I will cry and blaming myself about what I have done to them. I did it before with my mum and seriously I feels terrible about it. It's really hurt and I'm can't forgive myself until now. Last month, I attending the "Retret Hidup Baru" and I've been healed by HIM. And now, I feel free...but, there are something coming over me. I don't know what it is..but sure..bad thing could happen towards me. Now, because of my current personality..I hurts someone feeling. I feels bad about it. I wish everything will be okay. I don't want to loss people like you. Please give me one more chance to be someone in your life.
Love,
Shilon
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Monday, October 31, 2011
YOU!!!
Hey there...
I just want to complain about her. Sometimes you are annoying . How could you say a thing like that to me? Huh? Well, I know I'm not clever, pretty or friendly like you but you made my day sucks! Seriously, I don't like you at all. Well thats the truth! I'm fake in front of you...You totally G!!!! *crying*
Stop treat me like this:
1. Like you care but you don't.
2. Look clever but greedy.
3. Underestimate people around you.
4. Act like cool but you're NOT!
5. Pretending like you know everything about me but you don't.
6. Boom me because of others fault.
7. Always called me weird and crazy.
Thats all... I'm trying my best on improving my language but you!!!! Hurmmm..
end here!
Shilon is totally pissed of with her! Sorry to say...
Seriously, I don't like fighting! Because I'm sick of it...enough with my family but not with you!
No Love, Hug & Kiss from me,
Evil Shilon!
I just want to complain about her. Sometimes you are annoying . How could you say a thing like that to me? Huh? Well, I know I'm not clever, pretty or friendly like you but you made my day sucks! Seriously, I don't like you at all. Well thats the truth! I'm fake in front of you...You totally G!!!! *crying*
Stop treat me like this:
1. Like you care but you don't.
2. Look clever but greedy.
3. Underestimate people around you.
4. Act like cool but you're NOT!
5. Pretending like you know everything about me but you don't.
6. Boom me because of others fault.
7. Always called me weird and crazy.
Thats all... I'm trying my best on improving my language but you!!!! Hurmmm..
end here!
Shilon is totally pissed of with her! Sorry to say...
Seriously, I don't like fighting! Because I'm sick of it...enough with my family but not with you!
No Love, Hug & Kiss from me,
Evil Shilon!
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Inside Me
hye there...
I'm very happy today because of I manage to download the personalization software....now I can set any background that i like the most. Seriously, before this I feel uneasy because of I can't change my background..so stress...Finally I found the outcomes how to set the background...Thanks God. He helps me to solve my problem and make me happy.
Last week, me, Ponyo and CC have a great time together where we participant the Retreat Hidup Baru. The instructor come from Sister Pertapaan Putri Karmel Kaingaran Tambunan, Sabah. We're very excited and feel grateful because the Church of The Blessed Sacrament Labuan community held this program for us. I feel very light because all my burden and my sins are taken and blessed by Him. Thanks God. I really love my family but because of the way they treat me since I was small is very different and hard. Since my dad left us alone...I have a lot of trouble in my life..seriously, I feels so pity to myself because I can't take care it well. So many wound I get. Not only that..PANAU love to stay under my skin. Waaaaa....how I'm gonna face people if my body full with PANAU! Arrrrgrhhhh...since I was on primary school..the PANAU already choose me as a shelter. Huhuhu....
Thinking about my father, I'm really sorry to him because he is good brother to his siblings. On that day he taken by God...nobody come an see him. Even he own family. The siblings don't know about my dad...because they're love to fight when seeing each other. I'm every surprised about this. My mum told me before about my father sibling. Now he is gone...May your souls rest in peace pap..Love and miss you so much!!! I wish to meet you one day. Please bring me along with you if you visit me sometimes. crying............. T_T!
My beloved mum...I'm really sorry because keep away from you. i never share my problem with you because we're not closed at all. But I do love you so much because of you're my mother. Maybe because pap always advising and I forget about you. But from now on, your take pap responsible to raise us. I'm very thankful to you for that. Single mother with no knowledge can raise her children with working as a cleaner. Now, I not ashamed about that anymore because God ask me to appreciate the people that we love the most. Honestly, I feel ashamed to walk with your because of your lack of intelligent. But, now I can see your reason. I'm really sorry about that...I'm a rude person. Sorry because always shout and keep blaming you because of my own fault. Mum...I really sorry and please forgive me. What I really scare in my life is losing you will drive me insane. I'll pray to God to not take you away until i repent my sins to you. Love you so much.
Bad habit, watching pornography was very bad thing i ever done. This is my second time to go back where i should belong. The Satan keep convince me to watch this pornography and ask me to feels it. I hurt my eyes and my body so badly and I don't know what to do. I ask help and forgiveness from Him to avoid this thing happen again. Because of i lost my faith in Him, then the Satan can simply push me to do bad thing. Now I got the answers from Him, to clear my mind..I should read Bible or called out His name. It works and you faith will be strong after that. Keep praying, ask forgiveness and always remember God always be with us where we are or we do. Thanks God for your kindness make me feels strong and believe in your existent around me.
Some photos I would like to share with you...
Everything been answered. Thank dear Lord, Jesus Chirst...without you i might loss in the Satan world. Praise the Lord for being here with me today. Thank you so much and love you Jesus.
Thats all for today...I won't turn back because there is no point for me to remember the past. By the way, I would like to wish to my cousin and friends.... HAPPY D'WALI guys! Enjoy your day with laugh, joyful and prosperity together with your family...here...I give you guys my XOXO!
I'm very happy today because of I manage to download the personalization software....now I can set any background that i like the most. Seriously, before this I feel uneasy because of I can't change my background..so stress...Finally I found the outcomes how to set the background...Thanks God. He helps me to solve my problem and make me happy.
Last week, me, Ponyo and CC have a great time together where we participant the Retreat Hidup Baru. The instructor come from Sister Pertapaan Putri Karmel Kaingaran Tambunan, Sabah. We're very excited and feel grateful because the Church of The Blessed Sacrament Labuan community held this program for us. I feel very light because all my burden and my sins are taken and blessed by Him. Thanks God. I really love my family but because of the way they treat me since I was small is very different and hard. Since my dad left us alone...I have a lot of trouble in my life..seriously, I feels so pity to myself because I can't take care it well. So many wound I get. Not only that..PANAU love to stay under my skin. Waaaaa....how I'm gonna face people if my body full with PANAU! Arrrrgrhhhh...since I was on primary school..the PANAU already choose me as a shelter. Huhuhu....
Thinking about my father, I'm really sorry to him because he is good brother to his siblings. On that day he taken by God...nobody come an see him. Even he own family. The siblings don't know about my dad...because they're love to fight when seeing each other. I'm every surprised about this. My mum told me before about my father sibling. Now he is gone...May your souls rest in peace pap..Love and miss you so much!!! I wish to meet you one day. Please bring me along with you if you visit me sometimes. crying............. T_T!
My beloved mum...I'm really sorry because keep away from you. i never share my problem with you because we're not closed at all. But I do love you so much because of you're my mother. Maybe because pap always advising and I forget about you. But from now on, your take pap responsible to raise us. I'm very thankful to you for that. Single mother with no knowledge can raise her children with working as a cleaner. Now, I not ashamed about that anymore because God ask me to appreciate the people that we love the most. Honestly, I feel ashamed to walk with your because of your lack of intelligent. But, now I can see your reason. I'm really sorry about that...I'm a rude person. Sorry because always shout and keep blaming you because of my own fault. Mum...I really sorry and please forgive me. What I really scare in my life is losing you will drive me insane. I'll pray to God to not take you away until i repent my sins to you. Love you so much.
Bad habit, watching pornography was very bad thing i ever done. This is my second time to go back where i should belong. The Satan keep convince me to watch this pornography and ask me to feels it. I hurt my eyes and my body so badly and I don't know what to do. I ask help and forgiveness from Him to avoid this thing happen again. Because of i lost my faith in Him, then the Satan can simply push me to do bad thing. Now I got the answers from Him, to clear my mind..I should read Bible or called out His name. It works and you faith will be strong after that. Keep praying, ask forgiveness and always remember God always be with us where we are or we do. Thanks God for your kindness make me feels strong and believe in your existent around me.
Some photos I would like to share with you...
Everything been answered. Thank dear Lord, Jesus Chirst...without you i might loss in the Satan world. Praise the Lord for being here with me today. Thank you so much and love you Jesus.
Thats all for today...I won't turn back because there is no point for me to remember the past. By the way, I would like to wish to my cousin and friends.... HAPPY D'WALI guys! Enjoy your day with laugh, joyful and prosperity together with your family...here...I give you guys my XOXO!
love,
shilon to JESUS..
Monday, October 10, 2011
Updating
Hey there..currently at megalab..a now i'm updating my blog..
How are guys? miss me?hurmmm...what a day~
Actually i don't know what to share & where to start. Obviously, I'm really bored person and crazy a little bit. 1st time updating my blog in room...yet hate this place because of the workers are too annoying!Oh please la...you guys toally pissed me off~ Sorry guys..i have to go..i can't stand staying with this people make me feel sick! >.<
How are guys? miss me?hurmmm...what a day~
Actually i don't know what to share & where to start. Obviously, I'm really bored person and crazy a little bit. 1st time updating my blog in room...yet hate this place because of the workers are too annoying!Oh please la...you guys toally pissed me off~ Sorry guys..i have to go..i can't stand staying with this people make me feel sick! >.<
Saturday, September 24, 2011
A Pieces of my Life
Hye..do you miss me? I miss you so much~*diary*
Well, today i would like to spare all my time on writing in this space. 3 month left..no more holiday. Now, I'm back to school. I'm very happy in this few month because i can help my family earn some money. My mum, bro Daniel, bro Moni, bro Moboy and my enemy sis Shella...they are my precious family. Love you guys so much....and thank to the Lord, because of His love i manage to spare my precious time with them. I'm very grateful to had you guys in my life. Now, I'm wondering what they doing right now?*=.=* Honestly I really miss my dad...if he's still alive..how my life would be??? Life is a ? to me...
2 weeks in Labuan...and i'm still lost somewhere. I can't focus my study, my life and my goal. I'm worried about my family...*crying*
About my study...still blurr..and I have to catch up if not i will be left behind. There's more thing I have to do and think...my final year project, latihan industri (LI) and my life as student. I wish i can handle this "test".Jesus will help me if i work hard on it.....
4 month staying in Labuan...and it gonna be busy month for me. From now on, I have to prepare...my physical and mental! I have to be more CONFIDENT! Confident to myself, to people who i love and trust. Especially to my mum. I have to confident with her...she's a greatest mum i ever had.
My roomate..she's Marlissa Syril..CC and Ponyo x-roomate...Thanks God, finally I have roomate. I know she very well...how she dress, spent her money and study. She is simple girl but too old fashion *the truth* I would like to help her on that but i scared because she like to critic what i'm doing. Well, i don't like to talk bad thing about her...because it's not her fault. She just being herself. People don't like her because of the way she speak, act and think to others. Sometimes I don't know how talk with her...there's nothing i can share and do with her. Because of we're roomate i have to be careful...and avoid doing or saying something that can make her upset or feel bad with me. I just have to pray.."May Jesus bless this child and help her to be a good person and roomate for me. I ask this through Jesus name. Amen.
I feel so good when expressing myself in this space. It's very warm and nice to talk and share my true feeling....If i have spare time..i promise I'll be in this space again. I feel relax and a it tired because of there are selection for Futsal torment today...i don't care if i got selected or not..as long as i have fun playing around with them..it will be more enough for me. Well, i have to go...have a nice day ^^ yaaa..
Within this 3 month i manage to get some part time job. Working in KFC restaurant is not easy like you guys think. We have to cooperate and trying our best to solve any problem from our customer. We learn how to treat and greet people nicely. I will never forget this people..they taught me a lot of thing. Thanks guys for being my friend.
Well, today i would like to spare all my time on writing in this space. 3 month left..no more holiday. Now, I'm back to school. I'm very happy in this few month because i can help my family earn some money. My mum, bro Daniel, bro Moni, bro Moboy and my enemy sis Shella...they are my precious family. Love you guys so much....and thank to the Lord, because of His love i manage to spare my precious time with them. I'm very grateful to had you guys in my life. Now, I'm wondering what they doing right now?*=.=* Honestly I really miss my dad...if he's still alive..how my life would be??? Life is a ? to me...
2 weeks in Labuan...and i'm still lost somewhere. I can't focus my study, my life and my goal. I'm worried about my family...*crying*
About my study...still blurr..and I have to catch up if not i will be left behind. There's more thing I have to do and think...my final year project, latihan industri (LI) and my life as student. I wish i can handle this "test".Jesus will help me if i work hard on it.....
4 month staying in Labuan...and it gonna be busy month for me. From now on, I have to prepare...my physical and mental! I have to be more CONFIDENT! Confident to myself, to people who i love and trust. Especially to my mum. I have to confident with her...she's a greatest mum i ever had.
My roomate..she's Marlissa Syril..CC and Ponyo x-roomate...Thanks God, finally I have roomate. I know she very well...how she dress, spent her money and study. She is simple girl but too old fashion *the truth* I would like to help her on that but i scared because she like to critic what i'm doing. Well, i don't like to talk bad thing about her...because it's not her fault. She just being herself. People don't like her because of the way she speak, act and think to others. Sometimes I don't know how talk with her...there's nothing i can share and do with her. Because of we're roomate i have to be careful...and avoid doing or saying something that can make her upset or feel bad with me. I just have to pray.."May Jesus bless this child and help her to be a good person and roomate for me. I ask this through Jesus name. Amen.
I feel so good when expressing myself in this space. It's very warm and nice to talk and share my true feeling....If i have spare time..i promise I'll be in this space again. I feel relax and a it tired because of there are selection for Futsal torment today...i don't care if i got selected or not..as long as i have fun playing around with them..it will be more enough for me. Well, i have to go...have a nice day ^^ yaaa..
Within this 3 month i manage to get some part time job. Working in KFC restaurant is not easy like you guys think. We have to cooperate and trying our best to solve any problem from our customer. We learn how to treat and greet people nicely. I will never forget this people..they taught me a lot of thing. Thanks guys for being my friend.
HAPPY SUNDAY GUYS..MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL~
Love,
Silon @ Kims
Sunday, August 28, 2011
All in One
Hey you all!!!
Waaa...I really miss to write something here..now, here I am. Well, this past 3 weeks I can't blogging because of I'm work night shift. I have a lots thing to share but I can't already expired liao the story....haiyaaa~ OMG I don't know how start Ohh! Well, lets do it step by step okay...
Venue: KFC Wawasan Plaza
Time : 11.30am
Agenda : Just hangout & enjoyed the last day with CC before she's going back to Tambunan.
Well, I'm happy to see CC & PONYO...they bring back my Rainbow! Thanks for spending your time with me even though it was a short time. Seriously, I'm jealous with you guys...you have NEW HANDPHONE ok!!! Arrrgggghhhh....hahaha..it's normal to be jealous. Never mind next time I try my best to buy some. Well, that day was a last time we meet before going back to "PARADISE ISLAND" ~ Since you guys off early to Labuan , I hope you guys doing well and enjoyed your japanese class nicely~ See you guys soon.
NIGHT SHIFT..
2 weeks working night shift, I'm losing my Rainbow. NO sharing , NO funny jokes, NO life, NO money and NOT enough sleep.Well, Raya day is around the corner...we have to work more than 8 hours. It's mean all of us have to take OT! Sound great haaa...but for me? I'm so dead! Oya, on 1 & 2nd raya we wear baju kurung...nice haa..I wondering how we gonna do our work later! Cannot wait..
WEDDING...
Last week I attending my friend wed, she's look so beautiful and cute with that gown. She loves olive green and she ask me to wear olive green dress too...I'm sorry Ithere's no picture because I don't have chance to take some picture with her..so sad :( ~ Well, I enjoyed her wed...the dishes not too bad, I eat less at that night. I like this part when they entering the hall....the bride & groom are singing! Cute and outstanding perform ever. I'm happy for them and jealous a little bit...hahaha.May God bless their marriage and new life as husband and wife. Peace guys...Oya, I almost forget that day I drink....only 2 cup of wine only okay then I'm turn to red...hahaha...long time didn't drink ba..hehehe...
NEXT MONTH..
Waaaa, I'm so jealous...I can't attend my cousin wed...there 5 wed card we have. All cousin my wed..why la you guys wed on that day!!! Wait for me liao..poor me...I have to go back Labuan already...I'm gonna miss my family especially my MUM! I'm gonna miss to kiss her every night or when I'm off to work....tears drop..huhu...
I think that's all for today...14 more days to go..I have to enjoyed this short holiday. By the way, my last day working is on 1 sept...I would like to create a new memories with my family and cousin raya before off to that Pulau. Have a nice day guys...spare your time with your family on this raya because after this you can't do it anymore...you gonna be alone after this...
Kiss.Hug.Love,
Silon...
Waaa...I really miss to write something here..now, here I am. Well, this past 3 weeks I can't blogging because of I'm work night shift. I have a lots thing to share but I can't already expired liao the story....haiyaaa~ OMG I don't know how start Ohh! Well, lets do it step by step okay...
OUTING..
Venue: KFC Wawasan Plaza
Time : 11.30am
Agenda : Just hangout & enjoyed the last day with CC before she's going back to Tambunan.
Well, I'm happy to see CC & PONYO...they bring back my Rainbow! Thanks for spending your time with me even though it was a short time. Seriously, I'm jealous with you guys...you have NEW HANDPHONE ok!!! Arrrgggghhhh....hahaha..it's normal to be jealous. Never mind next time I try my best to buy some. Well, that day was a last time we meet before going back to "PARADISE ISLAND" ~ Since you guys off early to Labuan , I hope you guys doing well and enjoyed your japanese class nicely~ See you guys soon.
NIGHT SHIFT..
2 weeks working night shift, I'm losing my Rainbow. NO sharing , NO funny jokes, NO life, NO money and NOT enough sleep.Well, Raya day is around the corner...we have to work more than 8 hours. It's mean all of us have to take OT! Sound great haaa...but for me? I'm so dead! Oya, on 1 & 2nd raya we wear baju kurung...nice haa..I wondering how we gonna do our work later! Cannot wait..
WEDDING...
Last week I attending my friend wed, she's look so beautiful and cute with that gown. She loves olive green and she ask me to wear olive green dress too...I'm sorry Ithere's no picture because I don't have chance to take some picture with her..so sad :( ~ Well, I enjoyed her wed...the dishes not too bad, I eat less at that night. I like this part when they entering the hall....the bride & groom are singing! Cute and outstanding perform ever. I'm happy for them and jealous a little bit...hahaha.May God bless their marriage and new life as husband and wife. Peace guys...Oya, I almost forget that day I drink....only 2 cup of wine only okay then I'm turn to red...hahaha...long time didn't drink ba..hehehe...
NEXT MONTH..
Waaaa, I'm so jealous...I can't attend my cousin wed...there 5 wed card we have. All cousin my wed..why la you guys wed on that day!!! Wait for me liao..poor me...I have to go back Labuan already...I'm gonna miss my family especially my MUM! I'm gonna miss to kiss her every night or when I'm off to work....tears drop..huhu...
I think that's all for today...14 more days to go..I have to enjoyed this short holiday. By the way, my last day working is on 1 sept...I would like to create a new memories with my family and cousin raya before off to that Pulau. Have a nice day guys...spare your time with your family on this raya because after this you can't do it anymore...you gonna be alone after this...
Kiss.Hug.Love,
Silon...
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Happy Fasting Day!
Welcoming August 2011!
This month will be great fasting month for me..I try to fasting from eating fast food, but I can't. *upset*.
Well it's okay at least i try...By the way, I would like to say "SELAMAT BERPUASA" to my cousin and my Muslim friends. Don't curi2 makan okay!!! Hehehe...
Working Part...
Currently my workplace have not enough workers. The rest already *cabut*. What the @#$#$%$%! Now, only me, Jane,Lydia and Reachel left (cashier) *sigh*. So tired and i'm getting bored...facing the same person every day.Not only them *cabut* our manager also transfer to other place * So BIDAA oh management here!!!*. Now, what I trying to do is comforting myself with the new manager. * frustrating*
My Goal...
I thought after I get pay for last month salary I wanna buy a PC's but I can't! I have to pay a lots of bills & debts! I hate it so much...I'm struggling to get what I want but the result was awesome! Daaaaaaaa! I'm loss RM50 just like that! Now, I'm really mad because of that! It's my keringat you know...huhu..never mind just let it be.
Miscellaneous....
Annoying...
Last week, I'm outing by myself. As usual I will hang out with my colleagues in our lovely workplaces which is KFC! Hahaha...Then, I spending my time with this guys, he's Saidi...filipino boy who work as our cooker. Well, this guys is older one year than me, and he said to me that the way dress up are too OLD! What??? * surprised * Then, he brought me to Megalong and looking new dress for me. He said to me that he want to change the way I dress! What??? So bikin panas owh! He thought I could never dress up like other people...Then, ask to me that, he will buy me new t-shirt, pants and bags! Waaaaaaaa...menguji kesabaran you know this guy! Haiyooo...DAMN IT!!! Argggggghhhhhh.....he promised to me that after we get our last month salary, he'll buy all those thing to me. So, just let and see if he dare buy all that things!
Happening...
Last day, we celebrating my cousin birthday..now she's 15 years old. She is very lucky to have great parents and cousin like us.*proud* ceiii! Hahaha...we only having barbecue and cutting only. It was simple birthday party but we enjoyed it very well.
Starving...
Yesterday, I'm working night shift. My cousin wish to eat burger, then they ask me to buy it. But, I going back at 12.300pm...I wondering if they could wait for me? Then ,I just buy it as they wish.What so funny to me is, they waiting for me until 12.30pm just to eat the burger that I brought. It's so funny because all my cousin is female! *godoot*hahahaha...and you know what, they eating like *buka sahur* it's to late already. So pity. ^^,
Well, that's it for this month...I will continued writing about myself if I have spare time...
Selamat Berpuasa Teman-temanku!
Night,
C'lon
Happy Fasting Day!
Welcoming August 2011!
This month will be great fasting month for me..I try to fasting from eating fast food, but I can't. *upset*.
Well it's okay at least i try...By the way, I would like to say "SELAMAT BERPUASA" to my cousin and my Muslim friends. Don't curi2 makan okay!!! Hehehe...
Working Part...
Currently my workplace have not enough workers. The rest already *cabut*. What the @#$#$%$%! Now, only me, Jane,Lydia and Reachel left (cashier) *sigh*. So tired and i'm getting bored...facing the same person every day.Not only them *cabut* our manager also transfer to other place * So BIDAA oh management here!!!*. Now, what I trying to do is comforting myself with the new manager. * frustrating*
My Goal...
I thought after I get pay for last month salary I wanna buy a PC's but I can't! I have to pay a lots of bills & debts! I hate it so much...I'm struggling to get what I want but the result was awesome! Daaaaaaaa! I'm loss RM50 just like that! Now, I'm really mad because of that! It's my keringat you know...huhu..never mind just let it be.
Miscellaneous....
Annoying...
Last week, I'm outing by myself. As usual I will hang out with my colleagues in our lovely workplaces which is KFC! Hahaha...Then, I spending my time with this guys, he's Saidi...filipino boy who work as our cooker. Well, this guys is older one year than me, and he said to me that the way dress up are too OLD! What??? * surprised * Then, he brought me to Megalong and looking new dress for me. He said to me that he want to change the way I dress! What??? So bikin panas owh! He thought I could never dress up like other people...Then, ask to me that, he will buy me new t-shirt, pants and bags! Waaaaaaaa...menguji kesabaran you know this guy! Haiyooo...DAMN IT!!! Argggggghhhhhh.....he promised to me that after we get our last month salary, he'll buy all those thing to me. So, just let and see if he dare buy all that things!
Happening...
Last day, we celebrating my cousin birthday..now she's 15 years old. She is very lucky to have great parents and cousin like us.*proud* ceiii! Hahaha...we only having barbecue and cutting only. It was simple birthday party but we enjoyed it very well.
Starving...
Yesterday, I'm working night shift. My cousin wish to eat burger, then they ask me to buy it. But, I going back at 12.300pm...I wondering if they could wait for me? Then ,I just buy it as they wish.What so funny to me is, they waiting for me until 12.30pm just to eat the burger that I brought. It's so funny because all my cousin is female! *godoot*hahahaha...and you know what, they eating like *buka sahur* it's to late already. So pity. ^^,
Well, that's it for this month...I will continued writing about myself if I have spare time...
Selamat Berpuasa Teman-temanku!
Night,
C'lon
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Suddenly I'm thinking about him
Hey guys..*weak tone*
I'm so stupid! How could I treat him like that....when i remember the past..it was wonderful moment I ever had with him..He is very kind, polite, understanding, and loving person. He is too perfect for me..but I'm the one who's never appreciate him.Well, shamed of me..i should let him go...daaaaaaaaa! Enough....
I'm so stupid! How could I treat him like that....when i remember the past..it was wonderful moment I ever had with him..He is very kind, polite, understanding, and loving person. He is too perfect for me..but I'm the one who's never appreciate him.Well, shamed of me..i should let him go...daaaaaaaaa! Enough....
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I won't give up
This weeks gonna be busy week for me. I have to work until midnight and there's no holiday for me! Waaaaaa...I'm so dead. Anyway, thanks to Jane, Lydia, Khai, Azlan, Joe, Hasnah and Bachik...they treat me so nice and we working without pressure this weeks. I love you guys! hehe...By the way, this is an opportunity for me to get extra money..I wish i could get RM700 this month.*praying* Amen.
Waaa..it's been a weeks I'm working night shift. Really tired...i have to do a lot of work. I have to supply and do closing by myself. Thanks there's a second closing..if not I'm gonna faint to do it by myself! By the way, there's benefit if you working night shift..1st, of course you get free meal, second you can drink any soft drinks they give, 3rd..you can try all the product..but you need to be clever. My colleagues teach me to do so..not only me but also the rest. hahahaa...and last but not least, take away all the discard food..it's was awesome! No need to pay..just pick which one you like and eat it till you get bored! hahaha..*confession- i'm bored eating the same meal everyday*
Now, the hot stuff i would like to share with you guys..there's a guy, name Joe...he is younger one year than me. He is so funny, weird, kind, and love to grumble. Honestly i like to become his friend. There's nothing to be hide about him. He still young and have to learn a lot of thing. Seriously, i don't have any crushed with him...but he is the one have crush with me. So funny right? I asking him...why you like me? Then he said..you are cool person that i ever meet. Waaaa, i'm laugh a lot because that. I'm so cruel right? hehe...Before we become so closed, I'm the one who straight to the point with him..I tell him about my life and share my experience. And i think because of that..he like to stay and chat with me...I wish i could say this to him "Thanks for loving me" haha..it's very warm when someone like you and they treat you well... *blushing* One more thing, he's the one who bring me out to watch TRANSFORMER! Hehehe...we playing games, Kbox and going back together2..hahahaha..i feels like we're dating pula! kekeke..Then, since that day..we start sms and he always walking me home. Hahahaha..He is so nice and so young for me!
Lastly, i won't give up to get what i want. This month i just settle up the internet fees..*RM50 ringgit more to pay =.='* and other debt....Thanks God..for letting me to do it by myself and guide me how to be patience while I'm working..Thanks for everything Lord, You always be number one in my heart. And now, I'm missing you so much.Well, guys that's it for today..tomorrow i have to woke up early..morning shift okay! Daaaa!...
Waaa..it's been a weeks I'm working night shift. Really tired...i have to do a lot of work. I have to supply and do closing by myself. Thanks there's a second closing..if not I'm gonna faint to do it by myself! By the way, there's benefit if you working night shift..1st, of course you get free meal, second you can drink any soft drinks they give, 3rd..you can try all the product..but you need to be clever. My colleagues teach me to do so..not only me but also the rest. hahahaa...and last but not least, take away all the discard food..it's was awesome! No need to pay..just pick which one you like and eat it till you get bored! hahaha..*confession- i'm bored eating the same meal everyday*
Now, the hot stuff i would like to share with you guys..there's a guy, name Joe...he is younger one year than me. He is so funny, weird, kind, and love to grumble. Honestly i like to become his friend. There's nothing to be hide about him. He still young and have to learn a lot of thing. Seriously, i don't have any crushed with him...but he is the one have crush with me. So funny right? I asking him...why you like me? Then he said..you are cool person that i ever meet. Waaaa, i'm laugh a lot because that. I'm so cruel right? hehe...Before we become so closed, I'm the one who straight to the point with him..I tell him about my life and share my experience. And i think because of that..he like to stay and chat with me...I wish i could say this to him "Thanks for loving me" haha..it's very warm when someone like you and they treat you well... *blushing* One more thing, he's the one who bring me out to watch TRANSFORMER! Hehehe...we playing games, Kbox and going back together2..hahahaha..i feels like we're dating pula! kekeke..Then, since that day..we start sms and he always walking me home. Hahahaha..He is so nice and so young for me!
Lastly, i won't give up to get what i want. This month i just settle up the internet fees..*RM50 ringgit more to pay =.='* and other debt....Thanks God..for letting me to do it by myself and guide me how to be patience while I'm working..Thanks for everything Lord, You always be number one in my heart. And now, I'm missing you so much.Well, guys that's it for today..tomorrow i have to woke up early..morning shift okay! Daaaa!...
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Unfair!!!
COMMENT
Why we should pay the short? It's not our fault...Are you nuts? 480 pieces of chicken short for 1 day? Waaaa, nice work guys! Each of us have to pay RM17.40 for the short! I'm broke!!! This is serious problem. Haiyoo, come on la management, we working here just to get some extra money laaa not paying the short okay.Oh no! I can't be like this...i have to pay it also laa. As a responsible person, i should do what they want. never mind lo..maybe it was a test that He gives to me.I have to face it. Even thought i feels unfair...i have let its be.
HOPE
I'm really sorry for treating you guys like that *customer*..I have pride too okay. Please don't pissed me off..I just want to work happily and peace. Hope you guys understand me.* Horrible working experience ever!*. By the way, i'm still new in this stuff. Please guide me.
Why we should pay the short? It's not our fault...Are you nuts? 480 pieces of chicken short for 1 day? Waaaa, nice work guys! Each of us have to pay RM17.40 for the short! I'm broke!!! This is serious problem. Haiyoo, come on la management, we working here just to get some extra money laaa not paying the short okay.Oh no! I can't be like this...i have to pay it also laa. As a responsible person, i should do what they want. never mind lo..maybe it was a test that He gives to me.I have to face it. Even thought i feels unfair...i have let its be.
HOPE
I'm really sorry for treating you guys like that *customer*..I have pride too okay. Please don't pissed me off..I just want to work happily and peace. Hope you guys understand me.* Horrible working experience ever!*. By the way, i'm still new in this stuff. Please guide me.
Well, i already write down how i feel in this few weeks. I drop my tears on the KFC's floor already..haiyooo. May God bless me and my works.
Friday, June 17, 2011
It's my Birthday!
Hello peeps!
How are you? Waaaa..a weeks busy with work and now i still a short time to write down something on this space....well, today is my special birthday! First at all, i would like to say thanks to my parent because give me chance to living in this world and allow me to enter their real life. I'm very grateful to God because i still alive today. Lord, Jesus Christ..thank you for giving me chance to live in this earth..as you wish me to be a good girl. Thanks once again..its a pleasure for me to continued my life now. By the way, i'm officially 22 years old today..i wish everything gonna be okay on this special day...Before that, i also want to say thanks for my friends, family and cousin for the birthday wishes..sorry i don't celebrate my birthday. Thanks once again guys..love you all so much and may God bless you and family. So, that's it.. i have to go now..working on my special day..Its okay, at least i got the money! hehe..*mata duitan tul* Okay guys..see you soon.
Loved,
C'lon @ KimsNex
Thursday, June 9, 2011
The end of my free time..
Wat's up guys???
hehehe...
Well, this is my story..
On Monday, i decided to find a part time job. I just plan to have a work area Donggongon. Around 9am..i left home and i decided to survey a job at the longest shopping mall in Penampang which is "MEGALONG"! While i reach there..i saw a lot of people and its really crowded. Then i left and start my mission. I saw a lot of advertisement being post on their shop glasses..but all they need is full time worker. Then, I get out from there. My last chance is work at KFC..and first thing come out from my mind is...am i willing to work here? I just scared because of i'm so shy to meet people that i know will be there! hahahaha...Its all because of money, money money!!! Then, with my empty hope to enter the stall and asking for seeing the manager. Finally, i meet with A.Malik, manager of Penampang KFC and i said to him that i would like to work there. Then, he ask me to meet him on tuesday at 10am for an interview.
7th of June, i come ask his wish..then we start the interview...A.Malik explained to me that he really needs part time worker right now and directly he hire me. *deep inside my heart YEAHHHH! Finall~* hehe...then we talk about the regulation and i sign a contact with them. Before that, he ask me to prepare 2 copy ic,2 copy photo,2 EPF copy and last but not least, opened PUBLIC BANK account!!! Waaaa...so many he ask me to do. Then, i just said..okay, give me 2 days to settle this thing. I plan to go home early because of the cloud turn to dark. I'm so happy because i get a job...partime job!!! hehe..
Rm3.10 per hour..not bad right? hehe...
btw, i have more to share, but i really tired..so,next time i continued my words..
Loved,
C'lon
hehehe...
Well, this is my story..
On Monday, i decided to find a part time job. I just plan to have a work area Donggongon. Around 9am..i left home and i decided to survey a job at the longest shopping mall in Penampang which is "MEGALONG"! While i reach there..i saw a lot of people and its really crowded. Then i left and start my mission. I saw a lot of advertisement being post on their shop glasses..but all they need is full time worker. Then, I get out from there. My last chance is work at KFC..and first thing come out from my mind is...am i willing to work here? I just scared because of i'm so shy to meet people that i know will be there! hahahaha...Its all because of money, money money!!! Then, with my empty hope to enter the stall and asking for seeing the manager. Finally, i meet with A.Malik, manager of Penampang KFC and i said to him that i would like to work there. Then, he ask me to meet him on tuesday at 10am for an interview.
7th of June, i come ask his wish..then we start the interview...A.Malik explained to me that he really needs part time worker right now and directly he hire me. *deep inside my heart YEAHHHH! Finall~* hehe...then we talk about the regulation and i sign a contact with them. Before that, he ask me to prepare 2 copy ic,2 copy photo,2 EPF copy and last but not least, opened PUBLIC BANK account!!! Waaaa...so many he ask me to do. Then, i just said..okay, give me 2 days to settle this thing. I plan to go home early because of the cloud turn to dark. I'm so happy because i get a job...partime job!!! hehe..
Rm3.10 per hour..not bad right? hehe...
btw, i have more to share, but i really tired..so,next time i continued my words..
Loved,
C'lon
Friday, June 3, 2011
Fun Fair Penampang!
hello..hello..
Good morning pupils!
This is a photos taken by i-mobile 518 *low quality*
Waaaa..i really enjoyed today. For the first time i went to an area of Beverly Hills just for the FUN FAIR! hahahaha...so badly, i don't have enough money to play...anyway, thank to my sister because treat me...Well, seriously i never imagine to go some place like that..*i'n not social person* after i visit that place..my point of view have changed. People comes just for fun and enjoy the moment with family, love and friends. I really admire with my cousin..they have that chance to go with their family. I can see their happiness on their face. Even thought my mum was not there at that time..thanks God because send my brother and sister to accompany me. Me, bro, Shella and my cousin..play all the games..for me the fee are quit reasonable with the games offer. Suddenly, I felt so bad because of my sister pay all the games that i use to play. Supposed to be I'm the one should treat her. Because of that, my feeling being disturbed. I almost start the fire! But, suddenly..i realize i can't do that in front of my cousin..thanks God because He the one who is understand my feeling at that time...On that time..around 12.30am..i can see a lot of people rushing to get home. Then, my oldest cousin..said "Times up! Balik2" So, that the end of our happiness and freedom. I used to remember the games that we use to play..but i can't. Later, I upload the nice picture..as a prove that we having a good time on that night. So, i guess thats it for today. Have a nice dreams guys!
Loved,
c'lon
Good morning pupils!
This is a photos taken by i-mobile 518 *low quality*
Waaaa..i really enjoyed today. For the first time i went to an area of Beverly Hills just for the FUN FAIR! hahahaha...so badly, i don't have enough money to play...anyway, thank to my sister because treat me...Well, seriously i never imagine to go some place like that..*i'n not social person* after i visit that place..my point of view have changed. People comes just for fun and enjoy the moment with family, love and friends. I really admire with my cousin..they have that chance to go with their family. I can see their happiness on their face. Even thought my mum was not there at that time..thanks God because send my brother and sister to accompany me. Me, bro, Shella and my cousin..play all the games..for me the fee are quit reasonable with the games offer. Suddenly, I felt so bad because of my sister pay all the games that i use to play. Supposed to be I'm the one should treat her. Because of that, my feeling being disturbed. I almost start the fire! But, suddenly..i realize i can't do that in front of my cousin..thanks God because He the one who is understand my feeling at that time...On that time..around 12.30am..i can see a lot of people rushing to get home. Then, my oldest cousin..said "Times up! Balik2" So, that the end of our happiness and freedom. I used to remember the games that we use to play..but i can't. Later, I upload the nice picture..as a prove that we having a good time on that night. So, i guess thats it for today. Have a nice dreams guys!
Loved,
c'lon
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
I got new wound!
Haaaiii pal's!
Huuhu..seriously i hate my holiday at home! I being a maid, work so hard to make the house clean..and what i get? NOTHING! Hiazzz...On 31 of May..i supposed to be at KDCA..because i'm not a social person..so, i decided to stay at home with my lovely mum...that day, me, bro,sissy & my mum do mutual help to clean our house. My mum is a hardworking person. She never think about quiting her job. I feel awful...because she never give up with her life to support us.She said to me that as long as she alive..she will do anything to make her own child have a better life. I cry when i heard my mum said like that..i feel awful. I think i'm not a good child for her. How come...i bully mum? OMG!
Ok, back to the main topic how i get the new wound...on that afternoon..i still can feel the heat from the sun..it's so HOOOOTTT you know! Then, my mum asking me to help her to carry the zinc..then i give a hands. After that, i went to the back yard to put the things *i dun remember the things* =.=' when i turn 180 degree..waaa..i got cut my thigh with stupid zinc! Arrgggghhh...my pretty thigh turn to the ugly one. huhuhu..then i blaming my mum because of that. My mum said.."sepa suru x ati2..kasi ubat la..pkai minyak batu~" Then, i run to my room crying *childish* My sis also say the same thing and she laugh *kointiti*..what? Haizzz...they don't feel sorry with me. Never mind la..
1st day :wounded by a stupid zinc!
3rd day:after i swept medicine
LESSON FOR ME
Next time, be careful...
and beware all the things around you...
then you won't hurt yourself anymore because of you own mistakes.
*feel sorry to my own body*
Well, that's it for today...have a nice day guys!
Lift you day with a smile ^^
Loved,
c'lon
Monday, May 30, 2011
Wedding~
Hye everyone~
^^, recently...i'm attending my cousin wedding at Kota Marudu.She married in a young age....wow! ^^, Anyway, congrats to both of them. I wish they live happily ever after with joy and laugh. By the way, I would like to share with you guys a little bit about this married. Actually, my cousin is Pagan and her husband is RC. I heard from my mum that this couple doesn't married in a church.They just got blessed by the priest. However, I doesn't care about all those things...as long as they married is enough. May God bless this newly married and wish them find love and happiness in each other's arms!
^^, recently...i'm attending my cousin wedding at Kota Marudu.She married in a young age....wow! ^^, Anyway, congrats to both of them. I wish they live happily ever after with joy and laugh. By the way, I would like to share with you guys a little bit about this married. Actually, my cousin is Pagan and her husband is RC. I heard from my mum that this couple doesn't married in a church.They just got blessed by the priest. However, I doesn't care about all those things...as long as they married is enough. May God bless this newly married and wish them find love and happiness in each other's arms!
Morrian Lewis
OMG! I'm dizzy right now b'coz my neighbour having birthday party and karaoke...*tension* Fluke,my cousin stop by here to watched Nujum Pak Belalang. ^^,*happy* hehe..
Plan for tomorrow..
- Wake up around 8 something..
- Eat breakfast..
- Do housework
- Cook lunch
- Rest
- Paint my room with my sister..
- Facebooking...
- Sleep
That's it...for today. Last but not least i would like to wish all of you Happy Harvest Festival!!! Kotobian Tadau Tagazo do Kaamatan. Peace guys..please visit KDCA if you want to feel the spirit of this festival. Arramai tiii!!!! hahaha..
Loved,
by me @ C'lon
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Updating~
Hye pupils..
What's new?
Hurm..anyway, today i'm gonna update everything start from the day I coming home.
Well, 14 of May was the day that we left that island. By the way, I would like to say "Arigato gozaimasu" to uncle Sami because allow me and ponyo to follow join mimi balik kg. Uncle, u're the best!
First day: I woke up around 9am..then I started to do my routine day which is cleaning house " i'm officially become a MAID again!" XD~. Around 11.30am, i done everything. Then, i took 30 minute to take a bath and make myself fresh like a flower ^^,.
TV1,2,3 and NTV7 are my choice when i started to watch a movie..What? A movie? hurmmm...honestly, I hate TV3 it is because of the sponsored by..haizzz. What to do looo! i don't have the periuk. Never mind, NTV7 & TV2 are still become my no. 1 in my heart. If i want to watch inkgrissh movie (midnight only), i can press no. 2 & no.4 for Rachel Ray & Martha Stewart show. I love RR & MS show so much.
I don't know if i could finished this. So many mosquitoes inside my room. I can't focus and right now, i'm going to donate my blood for them while i hearing my big bro snoring at down stairs! Arrrghhhh!!! Calm down silon..calm down.
Second day: Outing with my lovely cousins (Megalong sja pun) =.="
Third day: As a usual, i become a maid again and on that day, my sista leave me alone at home..(working2).
And the next day...I started to packing. I have to run away...i need a freedom for my brain.
Tambunan, here i come...
I having a hard time completing my words because of this...(annoyance of the dog, lizard, and mosquitoes ). *mad* then, i play frontierville!
I've been a weeks in Tambunan.We did as what we plan before and now, i laying on my mattress and typing the words. Selling satay is my precious moment. For the first time selling in a real situation. Not bad at all, we all did it well. We managed sell everything we have :). That's all? so pity~
I have to confess, this time...i don't feels like before..not excited at all..just ordinary only. I don't know why. I felt like my body was there and my soul stay at home. Well, i'm really sorry...i have to say like this. I really appreciate every moment we spent together and i won't forget it. I just want to be myself..I'm tired pretending like someone else...this is not me.Opps..out of topic!
Expression of Liver~
Thinking about my future!!! I don't have enough time to get what i want. I scared one day, I die and can't get what i desire. The most i afraid of is leaving my family and become a sister. I felt like i'm taking a test. OMG! I think i'm going to die.I can feels it. If one day, i appear from this earth...I wish my family will be strong . Before i die, I'll forgive everyone who hurts me. Please forgive me and don't blame my family and please don't looks down one's nose on them. I don't like it. I don't know why I saying this. its all sudden. Oh Lord, please help me.. give me strength. Engkau kuatkanlah imanku dan berikanlah aku kekuatan dan ketenangan agar aku bisa menghadapi semua rencanamu.
I like this *When you get older, you can't stop thinking about life*
Selagi kita bernafas di muka bumi ini, lakukanlah pekerjaan yang mulia.
loved,
Morgan.
What's new?
Hurm..anyway, today i'm gonna update everything start from the day I coming home.
Well, 14 of May was the day that we left that island. By the way, I would like to say "Arigato gozaimasu" to uncle Sami because allow me and ponyo to follow join mimi balik kg. Uncle, u're the best!
First day: I woke up around 9am..then I started to do my routine day which is cleaning house " i'm officially become a MAID again!" XD~. Around 11.30am, i done everything. Then, i took 30 minute to take a bath and make myself fresh like a flower ^^,.
TV1,2,3 and NTV7 are my choice when i started to watch a movie..What? A movie? hurmmm...honestly, I hate TV3 it is because of the sponsored by..haizzz. What to do looo! i don't have the periuk. Never mind, NTV7 & TV2 are still become my no. 1 in my heart. If i want to watch inkgrissh movie (midnight only), i can press no. 2 & no.4 for Rachel Ray & Martha Stewart show. I love RR & MS show so much.
I don't know if i could finished this. So many mosquitoes inside my room. I can't focus and right now, i'm going to donate my blood for them while i hearing my big bro snoring at down stairs! Arrrghhhh!!! Calm down silon..calm down.
Second day: Outing with my lovely cousins (Megalong sja pun) =.="
Third day: As a usual, i become a maid again and on that day, my sista leave me alone at home..(working2).
And the next day...I started to packing. I have to run away...i need a freedom for my brain.
Tambunan, here i come...
I having a hard time completing my words because of this...(annoyance of the dog, lizard, and mosquitoes ). *mad* then, i play frontierville!
I've been a weeks in Tambunan.We did as what we plan before and now, i laying on my mattress and typing the words. Selling satay is my precious moment. For the first time selling in a real situation. Not bad at all, we all did it well. We managed sell everything we have :). That's all? so pity~
I have to confess, this time...i don't feels like before..not excited at all..just ordinary only. I don't know why. I felt like my body was there and my soul stay at home. Well, i'm really sorry...i have to say like this. I really appreciate every moment we spent together and i won't forget it. I just want to be myself..I'm tired pretending like someone else...this is not me.Opps..out of topic!
Expression of Liver~
Thinking about my future!!! I don't have enough time to get what i want. I scared one day, I die and can't get what i desire. The most i afraid of is leaving my family and become a sister. I felt like i'm taking a test. OMG! I think i'm going to die.I can feels it. If one day, i appear from this earth...I wish my family will be strong . Before i die, I'll forgive everyone who hurts me. Please forgive me and don't blame my family and please don't looks down one's nose on them. I don't like it. I don't know why I saying this. its all sudden. Oh Lord, please help me.. give me strength. Engkau kuatkanlah imanku dan berikanlah aku kekuatan dan ketenangan agar aku bisa menghadapi semua rencanamu.
Jesus..show me the way. Hold my hand and bring me with you.
I like this *When you get older, you can't stop thinking about life*
Selagi kita bernafas di muka bumi ini, lakukanlah pekerjaan yang mulia.
loved,
Morgan.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Motivate myself with some qoutes..
Today is wednesday...I have one more day to study advanced multimedia...Waaa..I just cover 1 chapter only..how I'm gonna pass this exam? Oh gosh...stress!!! Even though I study hard for this subject..I still can't get it..it useless. So, I decide to cheers myself with some motivate quotes..and its really works. Thanks God. When I stress I'll directly say this "I think I can" until sleep..huahuahua *crazy*. There's funny thing..while I'm take my time in toilet..I keep saying this "Hey you!!! Stupid girl. Please study la..haiyooo!" Not funny laaa..adoi! *sowt*
I need someone that can motivate me! But who? Hurmm...If I pray.. I don't know what to ask..sometimes I blur...OMG..what happen to me? Oh God, please help me..
I love these qoutes..
Take Time: Take time to think-It is the source of all power.
Take time to read- It is the fountain of wisdom.
Take time to play- It is the source of perpetual youth.
Take time to be quiet- It is the opportunity to seek God.
Take time to be aware- It is the opportunity to help others.
Take time to love and be loved- It is God?s greatest gift.
Take time to laugh- It is the music of the soul.
Take time to be friendly- It is the road to happiness.
Take time to dream- It is what the future is made of.
Take time to pray- It is the greatest power on earth.
Take time to give- It is too short a day to be selfish.
Take time to work- It is the price of success. There is a time for everything. . . .
[Ecclesiastes 3:1-8]Bible
Please hold my hands Jesus.. you're the only hope that I have in my life..
I wish this week I can go church..I really miss you Jesus..
I need someone that can motivate me! But who? Hurmm...If I pray.. I don't know what to ask..sometimes I blur...OMG..what happen to me? Oh God, please help me..
I love these qoutes..
Take Time: Take time to think-It is the source of all power.
Take time to read- It is the fountain of wisdom.
Take time to play- It is the source of perpetual youth.
Take time to be quiet- It is the opportunity to seek God.
Take time to be aware- It is the opportunity to help others.
Take time to love and be loved- It is God?s greatest gift.
Take time to laugh- It is the music of the soul.
Take time to be friendly- It is the road to happiness.
Take time to dream- It is what the future is made of.
Take time to pray- It is the greatest power on earth.
Take time to give- It is too short a day to be selfish.
Take time to work- It is the price of success. There is a time for everything. . . .
[Ecclesiastes 3:1-8]Bible
Please hold my hands Jesus.. you're the only hope that I have in my life..
I wish this week I can go church..I really miss you Jesus..
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Problem again..
1st, I can't focus on my study..so many thing i need to think and figure out..
2nd, my sister have to find another work..this friday would be the last for her..Shella, you so pity you know..I wish you could find another good job after this.*sobbing*
3rd, I have to solve my friends problem..He just breakup..i think, if i'm not wrong..He ask how to handle it..OMG..seriously, i don't know how to help him..i just advice him and tell him that he should accept the truth and be strong...that all..
2nd, my sister have to find another work..this friday would be the last for her..Shella, you so pity you know..I wish you could find another good job after this.*sobbing*
3rd, I have to solve my friends problem..He just breakup..i think, if i'm not wrong..He ask how to handle it..OMG..seriously, i don't know how to help him..i just advice him and tell him that he should accept the truth and be strong...that all..
I'm really sorry..
Hey, i don't mean to text you like that..but, if i don't do it u'll never know about it..right? I'm really sorry...i wish our friendship still okay..honestly, its my fault..i should tell you that my sister really don't like you...
You know why? because your behave and your personality..i'm sorry....actually my mum do like you, but because of my sister..she turn after you...you know what, i'm the one who getting hurts here..i try to cover and protect you from my sister.Do you know how i feel? Oh gosh...its okay. I feel so bad because that. Waaa...i hate this feeling..
You know why? because your behave and your personality..i'm sorry....actually my mum do like you, but because of my sister..she turn after you...you know what, i'm the one who getting hurts here..i try to cover and protect you from my sister.Do you know how i feel? Oh gosh...its okay. I feel so bad because that. Waaa...i hate this feeling..
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I hate you guys so much..you know why? let me tell you..
Firstly, you guys are fucking bitch! No feeling at all...you guys doesn't care about it...O crap..I use bad words already..sorry for that..but, truthly, you guys are SH**!!!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Vampire Nite
Waaa..first time i join my friends attend dinner...before this i never have a change to go with them..but tonight was wonderful and fantastic dinner that i ever attend..All the lecturer are sporting..they sing and dance like young people like us..huahua..so amazing it isn't?..Waaa...after that we dance..my dance is horrible and disgusting..ish3..and friends of mine are realized about it...OMG..ashamed of me...huhu..never mind...He also watch me dance..Omooo...i feel uneasy and shy...hahaha...Then the bad memory that been create by tonight is...i fall down and my leg get hurt....so pity right? I thanks GOD that my face didn't get hurt..huhu..so, my lesson tonight is..don't run witn HEEL ok!!! Aigoo..i'm feel sorry to noni because of her HEEL U_U..
That its for today...Nite everyone..Amen.
That its for today...Nite everyone..Amen.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
I wish i could write a good post...
Hohohohohohohohohoho....what should i write? don't know oO..My brain is empty=O!!!
I miss my mum...but i can't go back..no money..huhu...
I miss my mum...but i can't go back..no money..huhu...
Nonsense!!!
Stupid girl
Boringggg...
Silly..
Crazy
Lonely..
Naughty...
Sot..
Loser!
Schema..
No hopeless...
Pity..
Lack of Love...
Being a nice person is hard...
Love Chocolate...
I don't like to do that..but the truth? no one know...
Sunday, April 3, 2011
I hate this feeling so much!!!!
Please don't make me crazy unless you will lost your breath for last time. Seriously..if you really want to make it and do it...please be serious..i'm not the only who want all this thing happened. So, please don't get me mad..i don't care what you guys say about me...I know I'm not perfect, not pretty , not clever as you guys..so please...don't abundant me. I know each of us has responsibility.. so please be responsible...i'm really lost and confused. You guys born from rich and talented family..compared with me..i'm totally different..i'm poor person and knowledge..i came here to gain knowledge and not to fight with you guys. So please.....i'm begging you all..don't push me to do something stupid. Please understand my situation..you guys really amazing..even though you not excel in part..but exam you guys can do well. Seriously...i hate this feeling..i don't like to push people..but if don't do this i might loss my mark and my pride. 22 years old? Wow! so challenging age...I feel better after write all this..if not..i don't what happen later....i believe..Jesus always be with me..please help me and show me the way to solve all this mess...sorry for everything..i'm not a good servant..
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Assignment...
Hi there..
i'm back..honestly, i really tired and sleepy right now...but, i need to update my blog...so, here i am.
This month is really tough for me! a lot of assignment i need to do..i'm going crazy because of this. Thanks God..because of him..i still can survive my life with it. When homework,lab work and assignment combine, i'm really can imagine how i'm gonna handle it! seriously, i lose my mind right now..i really can't think positively and normal..something wrong with my heads...i can't remember the important things! while when i start a prayer..i don't know what should i ask to Him..i'm getting blur..my eyes make me feel uncomfortable and i felt that my body caring something..and it really heavy...2 week i can't sleep if my lamp off..i'm scared. everything has changes...how could it be? what is happening with me? here i want to confession...last 2 week i can't stop myself watch blue movie...i don't know why this happen? i'm really loss somewhere...my believe in God become worst...i don't know why? seriously...i behave like not myself...i'm prayer to God and ask forgiveness. Please help and protect me from make a sin! I'm begging you...i realize that you never abandoned me..but i'm the one a who abandoned you. Please help me..i'm really scared, i don't want to be insane girl..i just want to be a normal girl with her happy life. Assignment really drive me crazy! that it for today...i pretty sure that i talk nonsense right here..please forgive me..night everyone and have a nice day! Last but not least...please remember that Jesus will always be there for us. Just find him back if you turn a wrong way..Amen.
i'm back..honestly, i really tired and sleepy right now...but, i need to update my blog...so, here i am.
This month is really tough for me! a lot of assignment i need to do..i'm going crazy because of this. Thanks God..because of him..i still can survive my life with it. When homework,lab work and assignment combine, i'm really can imagine how i'm gonna handle it! seriously, i lose my mind right now..i really can't think positively and normal..something wrong with my heads...i can't remember the important things! while when i start a prayer..i don't know what should i ask to Him..i'm getting blur..my eyes make me feel uncomfortable and i felt that my body caring something..and it really heavy...2 week i can't sleep if my lamp off..i'm scared. everything has changes...how could it be? what is happening with me? here i want to confession...last 2 week i can't stop myself watch blue movie...i don't know why this happen? i'm really loss somewhere...my believe in God become worst...i don't know why? seriously...i behave like not myself...i'm prayer to God and ask forgiveness. Please help and protect me from make a sin! I'm begging you...i realize that you never abandoned me..but i'm the one a who abandoned you. Please help me..i'm really scared, i don't want to be insane girl..i just want to be a normal girl with her happy life. Assignment really drive me crazy! that it for today...i pretty sure that i talk nonsense right here..please forgive me..night everyone and have a nice day! Last but not least...please remember that Jesus will always be there for us. Just find him back if you turn a wrong way..Amen.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Confession~
Dear Morgan,
since that day...everything changes..no more pain or feel guilty. I'm healed by Him..my first love doesn't means to me anymore. No matter what, i still can survive without man. Its really hard for me to admit it, but i managed it well. I will continue my life as usual. No man and no pain. Just me, my family and my life. Everything is perfect.Now, i should focus more on my study and get prepared to take big responsible in a future. Wish i can make it well. About partner? next time...i don't have time to think about it. I have learned my lesson for having bf. I have a few questions actually...i just surprise that there's no tears come when he mentioned about end our relationship...then, i accept it very well. everything just fine. i know that one day i will meet someone in my life. Just wait and see if there's hope for me to have a good partner. I'm very thankful to Him. Being lonely wasn't bad at all actually. We should happily in our life and make it interesting.
Loved,
Morgan
Confession~
Dear Morgan,
since that day...everything changes..no more pain or feel guilty. I'm healed by Him..my first love doesn't means to me anymore. No matter what, i still can survive without man. Its really hard for me to admit it, but i managed it well. I will continue my life as usual. No man and no worry. Just me, my family and my life. Everything is perfect.Now, i should focus more on my study and get prepared to take big responsible in a future. Wish i can make it well. About partner? next time...i don't have time to think about it. I have learned my lesson for having bf. I have a few questions actually...i just surprise that there's no tears come when he mentioned about end our relationship...then, i accept it very well. everything just fine. i know that one day i will meet someone in my life. Just wait and see if there's hope for me to have a good partner. I'm very thankful to Him. Being lonely wasn't bad at all actually. We should happily in our life and make it interesting.
Loved,
Morgan
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