I hate this feeling so much!!!!

Please don't make me crazy unless you will lost your breath for last time. Seriously..if you really want to make it and do it...please be serious..i'm not the only who want all this thing happened. So, please don't get me mad..i don't care what you guys say about me...I know I'm not perfect, not pretty , not clever as you guys..so please...don't abundant me. I know each of us has responsibility.. so please be responsible...i'm really lost and confused. You guys born from rich and talented family..compared with me..i'm totally different..i'm poor person and knowledge..i came here to gain knowledge and not to fight with you guys. So please.....i'm begging you all..don't push me to do something stupid. Please understand my situation..you guys really amazing..even though you not excel in part..but exam you guys can do well. Seriously...i hate this feeling..i don't like to push people..but if don't do this i might loss my mark and my pride. 22 years old? Wow! so challenging age...I feel better after write all this..if not..i don't what happen later....i believe..Jesus always be with me..please help me and show me the way to solve all this mess...sorry for everything..i'm not a good servant..