Conversation between Me and Myself

Hey there. November already end and now I welcoming December. I hope this month would brings more happiness to myself and my family. Thank you papa. You are the reason why I'm still here.

I'm talking to myself.

How are you Seran?

I'm fine and thank you for asking.

How about your current life? Do you like it?

Well, I have to admit .I love my current life now. I feels secure while staying with my family. 

Good and well done. You almost here. Keep it up.

Thank you.

I glad to hear that you doing fine with you current life. I'm very proud of you. Don't be sad if you're friends push you away. You should be thankful to them because letting yourself to be independent and be more matured in your own way. Keep it up pretty! I know you can do it and be happy always. 

Love, 

Seran Lisa Ganis

Vintage Nite

Hey there..

First of all, I really miss you dear page.So, lets talk about it.

Before I sit for my final exam, I have to attend our school dinner. 2nd of June, our school held a dinner for all 3rd year student. They called it "Vintage Nite". I thought that night gonna be a great dinner for us, so I plan to wear cute dress. It was a black dot dress and it looks cute and a little bit sexy on my eyes.

Me and Cissy, my best friend.

That night was too bored and not as what I expected. But, its doesn't bother me to having fun with my friends. We are young and free at that night. We having fun with capturing picture and enjoyed the food. *not satisfied with the food* On that night, I just realized we're busy taking photos with others. That's it. With that photos we took at night reminds me how closed we are. That's night was full of memories between us. Have a great night friends.

By the way, I wish all the best and good luck on your exams guys.

Stupid Thought

Hey there. I'm back. Okay, I'm going to write about him and my uni life. Here we go, I'm not SINGLE anymore! What??? Seriously, I made him falling in love with me in three weeks only with my silly talks and jokes. How could it be? I don't know what is happening. Suddenly, he said he likes me.*Blushing + Happy*

The things he said to me.

"I like you because your matured thinking, funny,understanding and good listener. You make me laugh and help me to forget my problem. You light up my days with silly jokes and never get tired  bored with me."

There's a lot sweet talk he said to me and I write down everything in my little note book. I appreciate everything what he said to me and I thought that he is the man I waiting for. But I was wrong. I'm totally out of my mind at that time. I also thought that it was a right time for me to have a boyfriend. Then, I agreed to be his girlfriend. I can't tell you guys how happy I am at that time. Before this, I never felt like that and its was awesome to fall in loved with someone. I'm totally crazy about him. I still remember, he always called me at midnight and we have a long conversation. Its was great and nice to talk with him. For the first time I have a real date. At first, I feel awkward then I try so hard to act normal and finally we did get off the awkward moment. He holding my hand like i'm the only women he ever had. He had kiss my forehead before I leave and give me a true  love that i never thought I could get from him. Its was a wonderful moment i ever had in my life. He very straight to the point and honest about his feeling towards me. I can felt it. He was a wonderful guy I ever knew. I still can count how many times we met. 

Until the day comes, i have to leave him alone in that island. He fetch me and send me off by himself. I feel sorry for him. For the last, he kiss my cheek and hugging me with all his heart. I miss him so much. We have to separate for a while. One month i didn't see his face, I feel like i'm dying and empty. I miss every moment we cherish together. Then, he felt the same. Next month he promised to me that he going to see me and introduce his family. I'm totally nervous and scared. I never knew thing happened very fast. He came and visit me. Then, he introduce me to his beloved mum a.k.a grandma. She's was very nice and warm person. I also have an opportunity to get along with his step sister and his big bos, which is his dad. I'm totally nervous and act awkward. I keep smiling and laugh when his father talking with me. *very shy & feel uncomfortable* I have a got time with his family. 

Besides that, I also have the opportunity to visit his grandma house. I'm having my dinner at his place and I felt like to cry because the environment totally different. I can feel how's his grandma mean a lot to him. There's a story behind of it. But, I don't wanna talk about it. Its very sad story. Then, he send me home and we kissed. It very fast kiss i ever did and it really meant something to me. The next day, we meet again and having our dinner at McDonald. We do our things which talking about our current life and his work. Then, we off to Jesselton and have a walk. That's night was a perfect night for us to be together. Then, he send me home as usual. The next day, I meet with his closed cousin at the Bed. Its a pub! OMG!,for the first time in my life he drag me to his world. I'm totally scared and feel uneasy to be there. He introduce me his cousin and we have fun on that night. I'm totally drunk and dance like never did before. He also surprised about my behavior. Then, for the first time we kissed in front of a lots of people. I'm also surprised about myself. That's night was a wild night ever happened in my life. Young, free and wild. Hell no!!

His holiday is end. He have to go back work and I have to focus on my things to. Once again, we have to separate. I have to wait for another one month to meet him. But, we cannot make it anymore because our relationship is over. I felt sorry to him and also myself. Because of my silly decision, I'm losing him. But, its okay. I in believe God that he have a new plan for me. We're not belong each other. God send he to enter my life for a reason. And I have to faced the truth that's our relationship is over. At the same time, I learned something from this relationship. Trust no one and beware of silly thing can happen to us if you don't take care yourself. Always watch your back and reflect it. Last but not least, don't lose your virginity to someone who doesn't deserve it. Take care yourself and never fell with their sweet talk. You might lose something precious in you life. And always remember, God always be there if you're in trouble.

Lesson to myself: 

If you really wanna have a partner, make sure you ready and confident about your decision. 

Don't regret after you made up your mind.

Love,

Silon love herself. 

Lovely Pets

Hey there...

Okay, today i'm going to talk about my precious pets. Before I meet Ming(cat) and Bernadette(dog), I have another cat name Miau and I took care Miau since I was a kid. Miau is gorgeous and cute cat ever I had. She's married with stranger cat, and I don't know who cat was that. Finally, Miau get pregnant and having a baby. I was happy and proud of Miau. She's the only pet I had on that time. Miau not like the others cat. Miau is a brave, loving and understanding cat. What ever I said to her, she will listen and stay close with me. She never ignore or leaving me alone. Miau always be there for me when I feeling unwell or sad.We're best friend and I miss her so much. Since Miau gone, I took care of her kids. At that time I was seven years old. Its about twelve year I live at Kg. Novunsu with my family. Then, my grandpa sell the house and we have to move another place. Luckily, my cousin offer a place for us to stay with them. At that time, I'm very grateful to stay with them. Now, Miau's kid have a new home and also we. We stay together until  the day Miau kids died. Now, I have Ming and Bernadette  I love them like my own child. I don't wanna lose them anymore. So, I ask my mom to take care of them while I'm not around. And I also warn my sister to not hurt or bully  Ming or Bernadette. That's it for today.

Have a wonderful day ahead guys.

Love & Hug,
Silon.

Fresh Start.

I don't know how to start but I do have something to share with you guys. First of all, congrats to myself. I'm finally graduated. I made it and I happy with my achievement. Before that, I would like to say thank you for being there for me and never give up on what I'm doing with my life and keep supporting and encourage me to finish this study. I love you guys so much. (family, relatives, friends, lecturer and of course God)

Me and Cissy on our graduation day.

Okay, its time for me to updating my status. ^_^

My new workplace. 

Currently, I'm single but not available. Still trauma with the past incident. I don't want to talk about it. So, lets proceed to the next point. There's good news to share with. I got a job! *happy + grateful* 1st mission accomplished. Even I not a permanent worker but I still grateful with my current job. *account assistant* Not bad right? Nothing interesting about doing this work but for sure I have to deal with a lots of number almost everyday. By the way, the working environment here are suck. No life at all. Only four of us in one room. ( The BB, manager, accountant n myself). Okay, enough with that. Now, I would like to talk about the salary offered. My basic is about RM600 only. My cousin said, if I got a service point..my salary will be increase. But, it depends on my performance and my work. She also mentioned about the lowest service point would be pay about RM400 and below. * surprised about the good news* While knowing the truth, I still have a long way to go to reach that part.

There's another thing you guys should know. Currently, I'm not staying with my family but with my cousin. Feels sorry to my beloved mum. I have to leave her again alone with my younger sister, Shella .I hope she's will understand. I doing all these not only for myself but for her and my family too. 

I'm young and free. Lets rock the world with your own version! Goodnight. 

Love, 

Silon is back as Lisa.

I'm back!

Hey guys! Miss me? perhaps  nope. ^_^

Waaaah, it has been one month I didn't updating my blog. I have a lots of thing to share but I'm so lazy right now. Anyway, I'm back dude! hehe. What past is past. I won't turns back. I have faith, hope and believe to move on. So, here I am. Well, I wish to share something but I don't have enough time for it. I'll be visit you again tomorrow..okay? Goodnight and have wonderful day guys!

Love,

Shilon

Birthday Wishes

MAY-BIRTHDAY GIRL

I would like to wish  HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY FRIEND, CISSY ARMICO SAMI!!! Honestly, I would like to keep my promise towards you, but  i have no money right now. I hope you can accept this lovely Bento! Opps, this is not real actually, but i'm also planning to make it for you. Haishhh, money problem! I still remember what you said that day and I'm really sorry i can't fullfil it right now. Thanks God for introduce me with her, little 'NEAT' girl. I wouldn't be happy if shes not around! By the way,  thanks to Mr. Sami & wife , because of you guys I would able to gain something from your daughter! Shes so adorable and funny.I'm so glad to be your daughter friend, even though i always make her pissed off! *hehe* I hope this year would brings more luck and happiness to you and your lovely family!Amen.

For SHARON MONA JOHNNY,

Happy Birthday! May God bless you always and I hope you can chose the right path of your life. I know you're not happy with your condition right now,so please bear with it. This is life. We need to be patient and wait when the time right comes and everything will going well as what you expected! I don't know what I'm talking about, just ignore it. I hope on this age you would able to find yourself and chase your dream. Its time for you to enter a new world. By the way, before you made your own decision, please think about your family first. Just ignore what i mumbling here. By the way, you and Cissy turn 22 years old already!hahaha..we're on the same boat now. - Be happy girl! -

from unmatured NEX.

 

Step by step the journey goes on,
Little by little it may seem so long.
Forget about your past, you can't change it,
Forget about your future, you cant predict it.
Just think about present, you can handle it.
Enjoy presents every moment & be happy....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY both of U!

2012 Diary

HOPE  2012 

I know it's too late..but i still want say this "Hello 2012!" Finally, I meet you!Thanks God, for giving me another chances to live in this beautiful and lovely world...I hope this year would bring more joy and happiness to me, my family and friends.

LAST YEAR  2011- December

Celebrating Christmas and New Year on 31st of December. Awesome! I felt great spending my last chapter of 2011 with my lovely family and cousin! You guys totally AWESOME & SWEET! I'll never forget about it. Our main dishes on that night was "TURKEY"!yum..yum ^_^ Thanks to Miss Laura for her lovely turkey! Next time will be my treat okay. On that night, our party won't be great without a games, fireworks and liquor! Hit the music please!!! yeahhh..Party Over! See you next season~

NEW YEAR 2012- January

Going back KAL...preparing my final exam. Study without Spirit n Soul! Seriously, I'm worried about my final exam..I didn't prepared well. I hope with all my effort, it could bring miracle to me and pass all the subject! 20/01/2012 exam ended! Then, 3P is waiting~ But, sadly to said....I didn't get 3P! I felt horrible and upset! I wished that I could join them too but I can't then I decided to go back and enjoyed my semester break. Truly, I'm jealous with my friends because they could get 3P certificate and I heard 3P certificate are valuable! *HOPELESS* 

I'm home on 20/01/2012 at 8pm. Wake up around 11am and do my routine life. Do cleaning, cook, washing clothes and playing with my new cat name Ming! 3 days do the same thing. On 23rd/01/2012 is a Chinese New Year. We went to my uncle house at Palm Oil Lumadan Factory quarters where the place my uncle used to live with his family. My uncle is a Muslim and we're going to celebrate CNY at his home. Funny right? Forget about it....what was interesting about celebrating CNY on this year is my uncle spent us 8 ikat of durian! Which 1 ikat have 5 durians. So, it means we have 40 durians to finished in one day! How crazy was that? Anyway, thanks to my lovely uncle for the durians...it was beautiful memories ever I had from you! 

CNY is still on and I'm going to spent my 2nd holiday at forest. What I'm doing there? Of course la looking for BAMBANGAN not lost people ^_^  Well, it is Bambangan Season guys! Looking for Bambangan with my lovely mum and sister was awesome! We manage to get 2 plastic of Bambangan! *Happy*  What a wonderful day!

I heard my mummy @my aunty having a small rock on her stomach. The doctor said her kidney are getting worst and she have to operate as soon as possible. My mummy wanted to be operate a.s.a.p, but he doctor said they have to wait the specialist doctor to do the operation. I feel sorry to her. Because of the small rock inside of her stomach, she have to suffer the other side effect. Now, her backbone getting pain and also her left hand.I don't know what to do...so I just pray for her good and ask God to reduce her pain and be strong.

NEW YEAR 2012- February

Currently, I stay at my mummy house. Spending my spare time to take care of her and make her day bright. I want my mummy look happy..so I try to joke with her everyday. I helped her to take care of his 5 years old son and do the house work. I wish she will be alright. Gods always be with her.

Spending RM100 voucher to buy unnecessary stationary. 1 month break, I think of study mandarin language by my own. I buy kindergarten mandarin dictionary and start to learn how to pronounce the words correctly by myself. I also learn how to write and create a few sentence. I hope I can speak mandarin in future! What should I do now is keep practicing and never give up!


Thanks God..everything going smooth as I thought. Well, that's all for today. See you guys next time.


Love & Kisses from me,
Shilon.