I'm very happy today because of I manage to download the personalization software....now I can set any background that i like the most. Seriously, before this I feel uneasy because of I can't change my background..so stress...Finally I found the outcomes how to set the background...Thanks God. He helps me to solve my problem and make me happy.
Last week, me, Ponyo and CC have a great time together where we participant the Retreat Hidup Baru. The instructor come from Sister Pertapaan Putri Karmel Kaingaran Tambunan, Sabah. We're very excited and feel grateful because the Church of The Blessed Sacrament Labuan community held this program for us. I feel very light because all my burden and my sins are taken and blessed by Him. Thanks God. I really love my family but because of the way they treat me since I was small is very different and hard. Since my dad left us alone...I have a lot of trouble in my life..seriously, I feels so pity to myself because I can't take care it well. So many wound I get. Not only that..PANAU love to stay under my skin. Waaaaa....how I'm gonna face people if my body full with PANAU! Arrrrgrhhhh...since I was on primary school..the PANAU already choose me as a shelter. Huhuhu....
Thinking about my father, I'm really sorry to him because he is good brother to his siblings. On that day he taken by God...nobody come an see him. Even he own family. The siblings don't know about my dad...because they're love to fight when seeing each other. I'm every surprised about this. My mum told me before about my father sibling. Now he is gone...May your souls rest in peace pap..Love and miss you so much!!! I wish to meet you one day. Please bring me along with you if you visit me sometimes. crying............. T_T!
My beloved mum...I'm really sorry because keep away from you. i never share my problem with you because we're not closed at all. But I do love you so much because of you're my mother. Maybe because pap always advising and I forget about you. But from now on, your take pap responsible to raise us. I'm very thankful to you for that. Single mother with no knowledge can raise her children with working as a cleaner. Now, I not ashamed about that anymore because God ask me to appreciate the people that we love the most. Honestly, I feel ashamed to walk with your because of your lack of intelligent. But, now I can see your reason. I'm really sorry about that...I'm a rude person. Sorry because always shout and keep blaming you because of my own fault. Mum...I really sorry and please forgive me. What I really scare in my life is losing you will drive me insane. I'll pray to God to not take you away until i repent my sins to you. Love you so much.
Bad habit, watching pornography was very bad thing i ever done. This is my second time to go back where i should belong. The Satan keep convince me to watch this pornography and ask me to feels it. I hurt my eyes and my body so badly and I don't know what to do. I ask help and forgiveness from Him to avoid this thing happen again. Because of i lost my faith in Him, then the Satan can simply push me to do bad thing. Now I got the answers from Him, to clear my mind..I should read Bible or called out His name. It works and you faith will be strong after that. Keep praying, ask forgiveness and always remember God always be with us where we are or we do. Thanks God for your kindness make me feels strong and believe in your existent around me.
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Everything been answered. Thank dear Lord, Jesus Chirst...without you i might loss in the Satan world. Praise the Lord for being here with me today. Thank you so much and love you Jesus.
Thats all for today...I won't turn back because there is no point for me to remember the past. By the way, I would like to wish to my cousin and friends.... HAPPY D'WALI guys! Enjoy your day with laugh, joyful and prosperity together with your family...here...I give you guys my XOXO!
love,
shilon to JESUS..
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