A Day to Remember

What do you feel if?

One day, your parents died and you stay by yourself with your siblings:

Answer: Personally,I've no idea.

 I might be lost for awhile and started to think how precious 

they are while they still alive.Started to regret but nothing you can do because its to late.Feeling down,no hope,faith and love. Keep blaming myself for what happened and blame God for taking them away from me.Upset and disappointed with myself and its unforgivable.If,I'm not strong enough to deal this kind of situation, I might killed myself.I mean it.

Once, you let your emotion control your mind and body. All this will happen.

BUT IF:

I have to accept the truth, they're gone and will never come back. I will stay positive like I always did.Moving forward and no turning back.I believe,God have a plan for me and I shall continue to await.Stay strong no matter what happen.If you fall, get up and shine yourself.I believe, my parents will be proud of me no matter where they are.I have to help my siblings to move forward and continue their life.Show them, we can do this.God bless us and our journey just begun.

My advice to myself: Stay humble in everything you do, be a good role model to my siblings and always believe that, God always be there for you(HEART) to protect and guide you when you lost.

2014:Confession of Heart & Mind.

A Bachelor's Life

Hi 2014!

I don't know what to share about this year.

Okay...let me think!

1. I quit from my previous job as Administrative. Kingston Hotel.

2. Jobless at end of year 2013.

3. Cousin help me to enter Eminent Hotel. Administrative again.

4. January mode : Happy because highest salary I ever had. 

5. February (unplanned) : Attend driving classes

6. March (reason to stay) : Exposed to a lots of new thing

plus I get paid for OT and I can pay my loan. 

7. April (Blind date with Iban) : Because of him, I drop 2 kg.

Unfortunately, I decided to not see him. Realized that he is not a good person for me.

Status : Single, young and free! Hahaha

 Bad influence : Eat unhealthy food plus too much seafood and western. 

Quite expensive but satisfied. Someone told me about this ; 

"You work for it! So, you can eat, buy or wear anything you want". 

8. May : Meet a lawyer and the wife. Humble but unpredictable. 

Well, rich people. What do you expect?

9. June : When the lawyer and the wife take over : Everything mess up and nonstop resigned.

Bad feeling : Decide to quit and plan to stay jobless about a month. 

Resignation : Tender one month notice.

Beaufort : Attend Mariah's wedding. Malay. Stay : River Park Hotel. Everything run smoothly. Congrats to my uncle Judy Mandali. 

I salute you for being a good father. Stay single and be happy always. 

Four eyes : I bought new glasses! 

Job hunting : A friend of mine, she asked me to join her. 

Email : Resume.enter.send.

Interview : Pass and will start working 06/08/2014! Seriously? I got a new job! Thank Lord.

10. July (wise decision) : Hell yeahhh!!! 27/07/2014 was my last day and burden less ever!
No matter how bad or good they are.
I still respect them and thank you for the appreciation cake.

11. August (holidays) : 10 days only. 

Attend driving classes and old school friend wedding, create 5B group(whatsApp), 

bambangan hunting and last day, stay at home with my beloved mum.

12. First day working : Nervous because consider myself (zero) at that moment.
 Lunch at Jack & Pot. Madam treat.
Welcoming me and Farewell to Michelle.
Surprised : I have a student and I'm going to teach them. Very soon. Thank guys.
Bookkeeping & UBS : New thing to learn and its not easy to understand.  People like me, oh my. Good luck my dear.


The latest update about my life.
God bless you dear.
Stay positive and keep smiling no matter what happen.
You're not insane but you just a human.

Life is My Great Teacher.

What did life teach me?

1. Life teach me how to face the real world.
2. Life teach me how to become more matured in a different way and situation.
3. Life teach me how to survived in my life.
4. Life teach me how to handle my own problem. 
5. Life teach me how to love people around me.
6. Life teach me how to appreciate and be grateful for what I have.
7. Life teach me how to be someone special and different from others.
8. Life teach me how to be believe in myself.
9. Life teach me how to love animals and take care them as I'm taking care my family in a different way.
10. Life teach me to always be proud of myself no matter how good or bad I am. 

Thank you for everything Life. You really a good teacher to me.

Love and Hope,

Seran Lisa Ganis

Responsibilities

Hi there. I miss you my little space. I have a lots of interesting and sad story to share with. I'll try my best to write it down here.Well, 2012 is just past and now I became new person in this beautiful year of 2013.

Month of January is full of surprised to me! I have to faced a lots of new thing. I thought that I've prepare myself enough, but I'm not. First matter I have to handle right now is supporting my sister study. She managed to enter the school she wanted for. I'm so grateful she make it. I hope she doing great right now and be prepared for her next challenge. Second matter, I promised to my bro Sam about the loan payment. I haven't settle it up until today. The dateline is over and I'm scared his name going to blacklist by the bank. He loan a car for us and we should appreciate what he did for us. Now, I haven't pay the loan..he might be angry to me right now. I'm really sorry for that. I really want to help him but my sister matter is come in the wrong time. She need the money on the spot, so I have to use the money for accompany my sister to Penang. I hope my bro will understand and give me another chance to prove to him that I can help him too in may ways. Oppss, my time is up. I gonna continue my writing soon. 

Sweet Dream dear spaces..

Conversation between Me and Myself

Hey there. November already end and now I welcoming December. I hope this month would brings more happiness to myself and my family. Thank you papa. You are the reason why I'm still here.

I'm talking to myself.

How are you Seran?

I'm fine and thank you for asking.

How about your current life? Do you like it?

Well, I have to admit .I love my current life now. I feels secure while staying with my family. 

Good and well done. You almost here. Keep it up.

Thank you.

I glad to hear that you doing fine with you current life. I'm very proud of you. Don't be sad if you're friends push you away. You should be thankful to them because letting yourself to be independent and be more matured in your own way. Keep it up pretty! I know you can do it and be happy always. 

Love, 

Seran Lisa Ganis

Vintage Nite

Hey there..

First of all, I really miss you dear page.So, lets talk about it.

Before I sit for my final exam, I have to attend our school dinner. 2nd of June, our school held a dinner for all 3rd year student. They called it "Vintage Nite". I thought that night gonna be a great dinner for us, so I plan to wear cute dress. It was a black dot dress and it looks cute and a little bit sexy on my eyes.

Me and Cissy, my best friend.

That night was too bored and not as what I expected. But, its doesn't bother me to having fun with my friends. We are young and free at that night. We having fun with capturing picture and enjoyed the food. *not satisfied with the food* On that night, I just realized we're busy taking photos with others. That's it. With that photos we took at night reminds me how closed we are. That's night was full of memories between us. Have a great night friends.

By the way, I wish all the best and good luck on your exams guys.

Stupid Thought

Hey there. I'm back. Okay, I'm going to write about him and my uni life. Here we go, I'm not SINGLE anymore! What??? Seriously, I made him falling in love with me in three weeks only with my silly talks and jokes. How could it be? I don't know what is happening. Suddenly, he said he likes me.*Blushing + Happy*

The things he said to me.

"I like you because your matured thinking, funny,understanding and good listener. You make me laugh and help me to forget my problem. You light up my days with silly jokes and never get tired  bored with me."

There's a lot sweet talk he said to me and I write down everything in my little note book. I appreciate everything what he said to me and I thought that he is the man I waiting for. But I was wrong. I'm totally out of my mind at that time. I also thought that it was a right time for me to have a boyfriend. Then, I agreed to be his girlfriend. I can't tell you guys how happy I am at that time. Before this, I never felt like that and its was awesome to fall in loved with someone. I'm totally crazy about him. I still remember, he always called me at midnight and we have a long conversation. Its was great and nice to talk with him. For the first time I have a real date. At first, I feel awkward then I try so hard to act normal and finally we did get off the awkward moment. He holding my hand like i'm the only women he ever had. He had kiss my forehead before I leave and give me a true  love that i never thought I could get from him. Its was a wonderful moment i ever had in my life. He very straight to the point and honest about his feeling towards me. I can felt it. He was a wonderful guy I ever knew. I still can count how many times we met. 

Until the day comes, i have to leave him alone in that island. He fetch me and send me off by himself. I feel sorry for him. For the last, he kiss my cheek and hugging me with all his heart. I miss him so much. We have to separate for a while. One month i didn't see his face, I feel like i'm dying and empty. I miss every moment we cherish together. Then, he felt the same. Next month he promised to me that he going to see me and introduce his family. I'm totally nervous and scared. I never knew thing happened very fast. He came and visit me. Then, he introduce me to his beloved mum a.k.a grandma. She's was very nice and warm person. I also have an opportunity to get along with his step sister and his big bos, which is his dad. I'm totally nervous and act awkward. I keep smiling and laugh when his father talking with me. *very shy & feel uncomfortable* I have a got time with his family. 

Besides that, I also have the opportunity to visit his grandma house. I'm having my dinner at his place and I felt like to cry because the environment totally different. I can feel how's his grandma mean a lot to him. There's a story behind of it. But, I don't wanna talk about it. Its very sad story. Then, he send me home and we kissed. It very fast kiss i ever did and it really meant something to me. The next day, we meet again and having our dinner at McDonald. We do our things which talking about our current life and his work. Then, we off to Jesselton and have a walk. That's night was a perfect night for us to be together. Then, he send me home as usual. The next day, I meet with his closed cousin at the Bed. Its a pub! OMG!,for the first time in my life he drag me to his world. I'm totally scared and feel uneasy to be there. He introduce me his cousin and we have fun on that night. I'm totally drunk and dance like never did before. He also surprised about my behavior. Then, for the first time we kissed in front of a lots of people. I'm also surprised about myself. That's night was a wild night ever happened in my life. Young, free and wild. Hell no!!

His holiday is end. He have to go back work and I have to focus on my things to. Once again, we have to separate. I have to wait for another one month to meet him. But, we cannot make it anymore because our relationship is over. I felt sorry to him and also myself. Because of my silly decision, I'm losing him. But, its okay. I in believe God that he have a new plan for me. We're not belong each other. God send he to enter my life for a reason. And I have to faced the truth that's our relationship is over. At the same time, I learned something from this relationship. Trust no one and beware of silly thing can happen to us if you don't take care yourself. Always watch your back and reflect it. Last but not least, don't lose your virginity to someone who doesn't deserve it. Take care yourself and never fell with their sweet talk. You might lose something precious in you life. And always remember, God always be there if you're in trouble.

Lesson to myself: 

If you really wanna have a partner, make sure you ready and confident about your decision. 

Don't regret after you made up your mind.

Love,

Silon love herself.